Life.

So, I tend to assume that there is two ways to look at life. Life in general and my life in specific. Either anything has nothing to do with anything or everything har everything to do with everything. There are problably several other ways to look at life out there, I've heard about religion and spirituals but they don't seem to be probably to me. I have a hard time making up my mind which one of the two I would prefer. On one hand we are playing with dices. Every single event in life is pure hazardic. Man meet woman and the probability of that ever happening is as high as it never happening. They just happened to be at the same place, at the same time, purely coincidental and might never have met otherwise. Someone won a milion bucks at a lottery-ticket and that was just luck. He or she did'n earn it or deserved it more than anyone else. Karma is a nullity in this context. It does not matter if you fuck up once or twice, you will always get a new chance of doing something good and right and you will not be punished for the rest of your life because nothing that happens in the future will have nothing to do with the things that happens now. We just keep rolling the dice.

On the other hand we better play our cards right. Because everything we do will affect everything else. We would have met eventually, he or she would have won that milion dollar sooner or later because he or she had it coming. In this way things are ment to be. It's more or less impossible to change who you are and where you are going. If you are supposed to fuck up in the end you will for certain end up as a fuck up and there is nothing you can do about it. We are born with a road in front of us and all we can do is to follow it.

Sometimes i prefer one in front of the other, sometimes the other way around. Is it preferable to not be able to do anything to change your destiny or no matter what you do there is no destiny, just hazard?